WHEN???
Why? Why do people say that they trust you with a certian task and then go behind you and check up on you? Why do they blatently disregard your wishes just because you didnt scream the request at them? Why do people say one thing to your face and another to someone else? Are they that caught up with pleasing everyone that they cant just be honest? WHEN DO PEOPLE GROW UP????? Seriously?
So i’m obviously frustrated right now. I love the Lord with all my heart and want to do whatever it is that He asks of me, but sometimes i need a little time to get used to the idea. I dont mind being submissive to my husband, my pastor or my Lord…i just need to get things all worked out in my head before i can play along sometimes. Am i the only one? For example (my current situation as it may be): I have had certain unpleasant experiences with some people in the past that make it difficult for me to want to serve in the same ministry with them again. We tend to clash personality wise a bit. So why would my pastor who i have served under faithfully for NINE years put me in that position again w/o so much as a warning or heads up? As i write this i hear myself and think "wow, what a cry-baby". And maybe thats so. But i need time to work through my first response and know that the Lord is at work here. As for now, i’m content with being discontent and angry. Men dont understand that, i’m hoping a few of my girlfriends will. I’m mad. So there.
