What a difference a day makes…
So it occurs to me that a follow up blog is probably necessary to clear up any confusion about my last blog. I’m a girl…i get mad sometimes and occasionally i use this blog to vent. So take what I write with a grain of salt, people! My first gut instinct is ususally pretty emotional to some situations. But what a difference a day makes in how you view things! Now what makes me mad (more furious than anything!) is that boys (namely my hubby…) views my overreaction as me being crazy. I would like to clarify this… TEARS DO NOT MAKE MY ARGUMENT INVALID!!! Why do men see it that way? My hormones do not make me crazy! They make me passionate which i like to see as something that God saw fit to entrust to women because he would also provide the ability to control [the hormones] as well. And sometimes we "control" ourselves by letting a few tears fall as opposed to slamming our fist through a wall. Whats the problem with that? 
Anyways, back to the follow up blog. God is at work in every area of my life…always. I trust that! What my blog made me realize is that when we say "Here am I, send me" Gods answer may not be to send us to some distant country to minister to an unkown culture (which would be pretty cool, scary, but cool). Sometimes He says, "good, then go minister to this person" and that person could be someone you dont really want to spend time with. I have found in my life that this seems to be the case on a regular basis. So i can choose to be used by God in the small ways, not knowing what kind of impact it may have on someones life, or i can choose to sit on my thumbs because i’m too uncomfortable. OH ME! I’m convicted of this more and more each day…God wants me to be faithful NO MATTER THE COST!!!
I’ve thought so many times before that I really would be willing to give my life for God if it would bring glory to His name. BUt why is it that we see death as the only way of giving our life for Him? I think He is pleased with using us while we are alive instead of our death being the only thing that brings Him glory!The big things are pretty easy for me. Ask me to move, ok. Ask me to go teach orphans, ok. Ask me to work with someone who is difficult…now back up God…do you know what your asking for! haha! I think he knows EXACTLY what he’s asking for. He’s asking me and all of us to get outside our comfort zone and to put HIM above our own desires, likes and dislikes. So yes, i am convicted and unbelievably blessed to know that God would give me the opprotunity to do anything for Him. See, he could say "Geez, Kelly never takes any of the opprotunities i give her, so i’m just gonna focus on other people and let her be content being stagnant". But PRAISE GOD! HE doesnt do that! He pushes me in the areas that he knows i need the most work. Thank you, Lord, for wanting to use me. For taking the time to work with me when i am really the difficult one here. It should be YOU who dreads working with me, yet you do it because you love me and i am SO humbled by that.
