Built FORD Tough

HORMONES! Seriously! I’m having one of those days where everything everyone does annoys me. Jeff chewing his food even gets on my nerves! YIKES! I’ll go eat choclate and hope to calm myself now.

Gods unconditional forgiveness and Love. And not the kind of forgiveness that says "i dont care what you did" or "dont tell me…i forgive you anyways"…but the kind that says "Yes, i know you did this. I forgive you and love you".  It is because of the fact that He know’s every aspect of my life and CHOOSES to love me. And because of that, i have hope of being able to also forgive. See, if you live long enough you become a bit jaded (some at earlier ages than others) and what i have found is that while most of my "issues" in life happened as a child, it is in my adulthood that i have become so jaded by it. Some chalk that up to children being resilient or unable to understand whats going on. What i saw so clearly today as God spoke to my heart is that its not that as children we are oblivious, but that we TRUST so much more in God. We believe Him…not just IN Him, but as children we actually believe every promise and take Him at his word. As we get older we try more and more to control situations, make things work and so on. What God reminded me of today is that my becoming synical or jaded is a choice i have made to not trust HIM! I have effectively allowed Satan into my life in the little ways. He reminds us of what once was and keeps us prisoner in what could have been. All because we fail to trust that God has  a plan. Praise God…He has started today breaking me of that. Please pray for me as I try to trust with faith like a child.

Jesus said to him "If you can believe, all things are possible to him who believes". Immediately the father of the child cried out and said with tears "LORD, I BELIEVE! HELP MY UNBELIEF!!!"

Mark 9:23, 24

This is the cry of my heart.

We enjoyed our traditional thanksgiving with the "Tanks" this past Sunday. Thats short for "Tankersleys" which is Jeffs moms maiden name. We had fun. It was a beautiful day. And Jason invited his girlfriend…WOW! Big step for mister non-commital. Seriously, he has issues. Thank the Lord he doesnt read this thing.  So here are a few pics to enjoy!

Ok, we have been busy so I have lots to post, but jeff gives me the glare when i get on this thing so i promise to post some stuff this week!

Its 8pm on Saturday night and Jeff has planned a skit team/praise team party for tonight that started at 6. Well, its officially a skit team party but i tagged my praise team onto it since most of my team is boys…well, all of it, and i dont really guess its completley fun for teenage guys to hang out with me. Um, and probably not appropriate either. So we join forces for parties. Its jeff’s idea and his way for us to say "thank you" to these teenagers who give their time to serve in a ministry at our church. They dont get to hang out with their friends as much when they are at church and it really is a sacrifice for a student, but one they enjoy making and so we (and more importantly, God) are proud of them and grateful for it. Anyways…

The party is pretty much a "game" night. Not the kind you and I think about where we break out cards and "sorry" or "monopoly" but the kind where they play "halo 3" and "red faction". Jeff absolutly tears my house up for this thing. A sheet is hung from one wall and he brings in a projector and amp to hook up a ps3 in the sunroom. The 42′ plasma above the fireplace plays a ps2 all night and then there are 2 thirteen inch tv’s in the dining room facing the opposite way so that people can play james bond or something of the like and they cant see each others screens therefore adding to the element of suprise when they try to kill each other. And on occasion we break out dance, dance revolution in the master bedroom. Its really something to see. The kids eat pizza and play games and have a great time.

I, however, find that the older i get, the less i like this kind of stuff. So instead, i am in the computer room blogging about what a party pooper i am which is really so much more fun to me. SAD! I mean, right now the music is so loud i can hardly think which has drove me to my little room of solitude. This little room is freezing cold (jeff keeps the vent closed in hopes that the temp. will keep me off the computer…haha, i’ll show him. Ive got gloves and a jacket, hello!) Point being, i would rather shiver in this little room than have to see them putting their cups on my furniture WITHOUT a coaster or see the crumbs drop to the floor that i just mopped or see them spill the red kool-aid on the countertops. And believe it or not, i really used to enjoy the madness that accompanied parties. The parties were never at my house, though…

The thing is, i read Katies mom’s blog ( i LOVE it!) and i think, wow, thats the kind of mom i want to be. But i get so wrapped up in my anal self that i worry that i’m going to be the mom that nags all the time and never has any fun w/ my kids. No, i’m not preggo…but it is something that i consider…these future possible kids, that is. Anyways, i think i’ll go clean something now so i can sleep tonight. Maybe tomorrow i’ll set up a consult to see if i really have OCD and if theres any hope for me. Jk.

2 Blogs in one day! Jeff hates it when i "blog" because apparently, i do so more often than he would like. So this one is super short.

Daylight savings ends tonight. Back to "standard time", whatever that means. The pro’s of this time change are that we will get an extra hour of sleep tonight…we could all use that, i’m sure. We get to sortof cheat the clock and gain an hour of our life back. It will be light out in the mornings when we all get up for work (at least for a little while). The cons…hope you enjoy the sunlight when you get up because thats pretty much all you will see of it unless you work outside. I get the SADD thing (seasonal affective something disorder). Basically, i get a bit melancholy in the winter. To me, winter is good for Thanksgiving, Christmas and after that, i would like to hibernate until spring. Its too dark once you get home to go for a walk, its too cold to even want to be out, bla bla bla. So I’m hoping to enjoy today and my extra hour of sleep. Hope you do too, as we all enjoy whats left of fall.

Apparently I have been "tagged" by Heather (watch out girl, you just put a target on your back!) and so i will now be a good sport *grimace* and post 8 things about my kitchen. This will be difficult.

1. I dont cook. We eat alot of sandwiches, cereal, pizza and snack foods for dinner. We are very health conscience, you see!

2. It seems that no matter how many times a day i clean the kitchen, jeff always makes little messes in it that drive me crazy. See, the rest of my house can be a wreck, but as long as my kitchen is clean i feel as if everything will be alright. So the little messes in there get to me! I dont want to go to bed without the dishes being done and the countertops wiped down. Yep, i’m a freak.

3. Since I dont cook much, we decided to move close to home (my parents) so we could bum meals regularly off of them. I come from a family of fantastic cooks. They all grow gardens each year and for my birthday this year i got one of the best gifts ever from my 2 uncles…home grown and canned green beans. They are my favorite food. Ever. So my family takes care of us…THANKS!

4. I’m an orginization freak so the cabinents are usually not cluttered and i hate it when stuff is in the wrong place. Then i cant find something when i do go in there the 2 times a year that i cook.

5. I’m beginning to buy more and more entertaining plates/dishes. For example, southern living has great stuff that i always love. I have most recently been coveting this 3 tiered appetizer/dessert thing that is so cute but was 50 bucks so i laughed and then found it for 19.99 at bed bath and beyond, plus i got to use one of the handy 20% off cupons they sent in the mail. YIPEE! Who knows if it will get used in the next 5 years more than once or twice, but its nice to have in my collection.

6. Jeff loves 3 things that i make. 1. Sweet Tea-he’ll drink a gallon in 2 days, max.    2. Broccli Slaw-its his moms reciepe and its really yummy. He eats a double batch in a day usually. 3. Chicken Ball- Sounds wierd, i know. Its like a cheese ball. Again, he devours them! And thats about all that i cook well.

7. Spud loves the kitchen because we get alot of sunlight in there and he likes to lay directly in the sun. Funny thing, i love to lay in the sun too! Like mother like son. hahah!

8. I love our kitchen in our home. When we do have people over, its large enough that I can be cooking or setting up and lots of family and friends can be close by. It really is the hub of the home. My "hub" will hopefully be getting some new countertops (corian) and a tile backsplash next year and i’m hoping that will make me want to cook more. I’m not holding my breath, though.

And i basically have the same friends as heather and i refuse to tag Lindsay or Katie since they have newborns, so i hope you enjoyed my little blog and the maddness stops HERE!