Well, we still need prayers…
We have been on quite the rollercoaster in the past week. We have been hesitant to announce this but we are pregnant. We are about six and a half weeks and I have been experiencing some "complications" with spotting and cramping. I know that can be normal sometimes, but for me it seems to be less than normal. I have had 2 ultrasounds so far and the baby (or sac) is not visible in my uterus. So it appears that we may have an ectopic pregnancy. My hormone levels are going up as they should but the Dr’s cannot find the sac and I am having pain in my lower left side. So, as of today my Dr said she would prefer to go ahead and give me methatrexane to make me "terminate" but that since we want the preganancy she will recheck my blood levels on Monday and repeat the ultrasound on Tuesday just to be sure. She seems confident that its a tubal pregnancy but since she also couldnt find the sac in the tube, she said we can wait a couple more days. However, she has said that if the pain worsens to get to the E.R. asap because it could rupture my fallopian tube. WOW.
So as far as Jeff and i are concerned, we are mentally drained. We desire the Lords will. Period. We are praying that the "small chance" that this could be a normal pregnancy will prevail and that everything will be fine. That would be ideal. But ultimately, we want to come out of this and be able to give glory to God for whatever the outcome…and that is easier said than done. I always thought I trusted the Lord with everything! But as it turns out, i’ve never gone through anything that I had ABSOLUTLEY NO CONTROL OVER!!! That is when you learn how much you really trust Him. So if nothing else, this has been a real test of faith and I pray (literally) that we can come out of this stronger in our hope, trust and belief of our God than ever before.
So, as you all sit on pins and needles with us over the weekend, please pray for protection for me. Please pray for our walk with the Lord and feel free to pray for a miracle. God has done more with worse odds, so we trust that He has control over this situation. Thank you all for your concern and lov and prayers. We will try to keep this blog updated so you can continue to pray for us as God leads.
