But always be able to give account for the reason for your HOPE!
I know that contextually speaking that the Lord is telling us to be able to give account for our hope in Him and we typically assume that means for salvation. But I have found that our hope in Christ is for every part of our lives! It is becasue of the confidence I have in my God and in the fact that I KNOW HE created this child inside of me that I have HOPE that things may be fine! Wouldnt it be something to go to the Dr on Tuesday and for my baby to be visible…almost as if to say "hey, you finally found me!".
I dont want you to think that i am at all ignorant to the possibility that this may be exactly what the Dr suspects…a tubal pregnancy. But nor am I at all convinced that it is that either! My Dr wants to be able to visualize the sac after a hcg level of 1500 and much of her concern comes from the fact that my level was over that (by such a small amount, only 1724, i think). BUt according to wikipedia (yes, i’m a wikapedia fan!…its the source of all "truthiness" according to Steven Colbert..haha!) a differential diagnosis between a normal early pregnancy and a tubal pregnancy should not be made until hcg levels have reached or exceeded 3000! So I will definitely be past that point by Tuesday and it will be easier to accept whatever we find as truth. But as of now, I HOPE!!!
Also, my cramping in my lower left side has been consistent since the weekend I found out I was pregnant. No better, no worse. I’m not taking meds, i’m not doubled over in pain…in fact its only noticeable when I am not busy and i think about it. So I also have concerns as to if the pain could be caused by my cyst that they found last week…or for that matter…maybe my baby is hiding behind the cyst!
Also, i am considering asking for a 2nd opinion within the practice from a Dr with much more experience. Not that I think my Dr is wrong or bad, but she may be more cautious than another Dr. And ultimately, if the baby is in the tube, I will have no choice, but until they SHOW me that baby in the tube, i’m not ready to make a decision that could end the life of a potentially viable child! OUR child. Anyways, thats the latest scoop. So will you pray with us for our baby to come out of hiding! Only in utero and already causing trouble…yep! Thats our kid! 
Well Kelly, you have lots of little scenarios brewing. I pray that the actual scenario is the one where the Dr just hasn’t seen the baby yet, or that its hiding behind the cyst. And this cyst…. is that anything to be concerned about? Great blog… I couldn’t imagine having to go through what you are right now. I am not one to sit and wait… I want results and answers NOW!! I think getting a second opinion is great. And as a “mom” you have to do what YOU feel is right for your baby and youself. Take it easy this weekend and keep us updated!
Love you!
Comment by Ashley — December 15, 2007 @ 6:09 pm
Father,
Thank You for knitting this baby in Kelly’s womb. Thank You for loving this baby and for having a plan for its life. Thank You for using this little baby to display Your grace and strength through the lives of its parents. God, You know my heart, and You know the hearts of Jeff and Kelly. I ask tonight that You would bring their little baby out of hiding. I ask for a clear picture of this tiny being…and I pray that it would be found in Kelly’s uterus, right where it should be. But mostly I pray for Jeff and Kelly, and for them to experience Your perfect peace that transcends all understanding–all understanding–and that they would know without a doubt that You are in control of everything, and that they can lean on You and trust You with everything happening in their lives. Thank You for using their family to bring glory to Your name.
Amen.
Comment by heather — December 16, 2007 @ 3:13 am