Control Freak!
Does anybody else ever wonder WHEN God is going to DO something? Like you know He has a plan but you would like to see that plan unfold soon! Thats the way i am right now w/ jeff’s job. He got offered a teaching and coaching position at parkview but didnt accept right away b/c its far and he wanted to see what dacula and grayson said 1st. Well, he didnt find out from them until it was too late at parkview and I swear…i almost killed him. Then i was reminded of the fact that he is my leader and I have to trust him. He says he did not feel at peace about parkview and felt like with us (one day) trying for a family he doesnt want to be coaching and teaching so far away and never see his wife and kid. So i am really grateful for his thoughtfulness and that he is not so ambitious that he forgets his family. He also is confident that God has a perfect place for him. I know thats true…but i’m a planner and I would really like to be able to plan my next couple of years and I need to know where jeff will be working to do that! I know…i ‘m a freak. So i’m not so patiently waiting. Wondering when we will finally have a family. Where jeff will work. Will i be able to financially afford to drop one day a week of working if he teaches outside gwinnett. So many things i wonder and worry about. I’m borrowing trouble and today has enough of its own, I know. WHY AM I SUCH A CONTROL FREAK and what in the world can i do about it?! I pray! seriously! But its in my nature to be organized and methodical and deliberate in my actions…its hard to do that when you dont know what to plan for. I am so grateful that God knows and that HE has laid it all out for us…but, boy, would I sure like to see that plan. That would defeat the purpose of faith, i know. BUt it would be so much easier!
I think as women we have a hard time not being control freaks!!! You are doing great… keep prayin’!
Comment by katie — March 24, 2008 @ 3:33 am
I feel ya….man, do I feel ya!
Comment by Morgan — March 24, 2008 @ 12:21 pm
Things will fall into place. They always do. Continue praying and God will Provide!
Comment by miriam — March 24, 2008 @ 3:05 pm