Just call me Debbie Downer
Anticipation..It can be great, right! You anticipate your hubby coming home and the kiss you will share. You anticipate the sun rising tomorrow and how beautiful it will be. But my anticipation is quite different.
I have figured out that I anticipate everything that I cannot control and everything that may go wrong. I am a pessimist! I HATE that about myself. I fight against it like crazy but as soon as spring comes i start dreading the dark cold days of winter and know that each beautiful day we enjoy is one day closer to that dreaded winter day. I wake up on Fridays knowing that the weekend will go so fast and that before I know it Monday will return. I dread. I am missing out on what is NOW! This is a huge fear of mine…that life will pass me by and all I will have done is dread the inevitable. I do not want to be this way and while I Know without a doubt that the Lord can help me overcome this, I am also a big believer in taking positive steps to show desire and lets face it…it is hard to retrain your mind to function otherwise. Am i not trusting the Lord enough? Probably not…and i know that alot of this has to do w/ my ridiculous control freak nature…but I also know that I am not the 1st person created w/ this personality trait. God must have some way of using this for good, right?! He uses all for His glory, if given the opportunity!
So please…pray for me…but PLEASE! give me some feedback on how to be a positive and uplifting person.
couldn’t tell ya…the glass is half-empty for me too…let me know if you figure it out:)
Comment by Morgan — April 17, 2008 @ 12:32 pm
I don’t know what to tell you…. but I’ll pray for your pessimistic attitude:)
Comment by miriam — April 18, 2008 @ 12:56 pm
well. i can’t fix you. cause we seem to share a smiliar personality trait. BUT. from morgan’s comment, she does too. and i think that is why we 3 are so witty and funny…and amazingly beautiful…
Comment by donna b — April 22, 2008 @ 1:43 am